Now, reading all of the above you might guess that I don't like being pregnant. It is actually just the opposite. I love being pregnant. Yes, almost every aspect that comes with pregnancy involves some form of suffering, right up until the end. And yes, it is very difficult to see my once nice, fit body permanently marked with the signs of pregnancy and not quite the same shape it used to be. But through these long 9 months of anxious anticipation of my daughter, there has been one thought that gives me comfort.
Motherhood is the only vocation where one is called to physically give their body as Christ did.
We, as mothers, literally give our bodies for the sake of another as Christ did on the cross. For nine months our bodies become a dwelling place for an innocent life, and we suffer and give till we think we no longer can (or till we think we might literally "pop"). All this is done out of love for this tiny person we have never met. And does it stop after the birth? No. In fact some women would agree with me that it becomes even harder. Your body, already recovering from birth, is trying to stabilize hormones, produce milk, and take care of a brand new baby all on little, and sometimes no, sleep. This for me was, and I'm sure will be this time around as well, overwhelming and seemingly impossible. But, when I put it in the context of sanctification of the soul, and not of worldly things, it becomes so much easier. When I picture myself with my stretch marks, pains, and my awkward body walking next to a man who is bloody, beaten, exhausted and embracing a cross he never deserved, I feel unworthy of such small sufferings. Especially such small sufferings that bring the joy of new life at the end of it all.
So today my resolution is just that: to suffer as Christ did in silence and humility. And I am sure that if things get too tough, our loving Father will send me a Simon.
In His Love,